This episode made me appreciate Damon Salvatore more than i thought possible.
He is so human and flawed, which in my eyes makes him the most honest character on the show.
From episode one, the show has been dictated by the need of understanding life, depicting right and wrong, finding a hero to believe in.
Through Stefan’s character we have seen represented the need to elevate oneself from the temptations of life, we have seen in him the need to become a hero, to conquer his own darkness and come out as a victor.
But that is all a lie. Nobody is a saint, nobody is a hero. There is no right or wrong, there is no black and white. Everyone is a sinner and everyone is a saint.
Pretending to be anything but that is a lie. And Damon knows that. He doesn’t hide who he is, he doesn’t pretend to be someone he’s not. He knows life is cruel and he knows anyone can be cruel.
What he did to Enzo is so desperately human.
He survived the torture because he hung onto hope and revenge, because he forged a friendship, because he had a future. But then when all hope was lost, he ran. And that is so human. The guilt and the pain for leaving his friend behind were so big that he had to turn it all off.
I appreciate this a lot more that some ridiculous heroic gesture of sacrifice, because that would have been incredibly and unrealistically distorted.
Damon is a much more human, and true to what being a human being implies, than anyone else on this show. And I love it. He’s morally grey, he’s ambiguous, he’s flawed and vulnerable. Sometimes he fails and sometimes he wins. He makes mistakes, and he makes up for his mistakes.
I’d rather see something real and concrete than some fairytale bullshit about fictitious values.